Assalamualaikum.

Lama betul aku tak update blog. Dulu time tak ada internet hari-hari rasa nak update blog, kemain kau. Sekarang bila ada wifi kat rumah banyak habis kat benda lain.

By the way, sesiapa yang baca update ni tolong doakan agar semua novel aku berjaya di terbitkan. Aku nak jadi penulis novel yang berjaya. Sekarang aku tengah nak siapkan 3 novel. Tapi dalam 3 novel tu mungkin satu akan siap dulu so dua lagi tu tunggu kemudian pulak.

Okaylah nak sambung menulis pulak.

Byeee 

 Assalamualaikum.


Hrm, manuskrip novel aku dah di hantar kepada publisher Fixi, tapi taktau la diorang nak terbitkan atau tak. Kalau diorang tak terbit aku nak hantar kepada publisher lain. Bukan senang nak buat novel babe, kena perah idea dalam kepala. Google macam-macam untuk buat plot. Dulu aku hantar novel Darjat kat Fixi. Sekarang aku tengah buat novel Dua pula. Nak tau pasal apa kita tunggu Fixi publish ke tak. Yang pasti memang banyak climax dalam storyline.

So, sekarang aku otw nak menyiapkan novel Dua pula.


 


 

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Alhamdulillah novel aku dah siap. Cerita cinta antara Ikram, Melissa, Shahizan dan Elise. Aku harap Fixi sudi terbitkan novel aku tu, aku rasa ramai yang nak baca stiry aku ni hehehe. Tapi bagi aku memang best la jalan cerita dia hahaha, masuk bakul angkat sendiri pulak. Aku teringin sangat nak bagi orang baca novel aku ni. So kalau boleh tolong doakan agar Fixi sudi terbitkan novel aku nanti.


 Novel aku dah siap di tulis tapi aku tak pasti sama ada novel aku akan di terbitkan atau tidak. Novel aku berkisar novel cinta 4 segi. Hopefully FIXI sudilah terbitkan novel aku. Aku tak pasti best ke tak so korang kena bacalah kalau diorang terbitkan nanti. Itu sajalah aku nak cakap buat masa ni.

Alhamdulillah akhirnya novel aku siap. Tapi aku tak pasti fixi akan terbitkan novel aku atau tidak. Aku harap sangat novel aku dapat di terbitkan nanti. 

Hobi aku sekarang adalah menulis. Ikutlah menulis di mana pun asal aku boleh tulis dan aku boleh simpan. Di blog, di words, dibuku, kertas dan semuanyalah. Yang pasti aku suka menulis. Novel aku baru masuk 44,000 patah perkataan.  Slow-slow. Nanti nak baiki lagi, tgk mana yang best kita buang.

Hrm, aku macam stuck je sekarang nak menulis novel ni. Apa aku nak tulis pun aku tak tau. Nak menulis dalam blog pun aku tak tau. Nak blog walking la pulak. Lama tak blog walking kan 

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Susahnya bila setiap kali aku pergi dialisis aku terpaksa hadap suara yang mengganggu aku ni. Aku dah rasa boring sangat dengan suara tak guna ni. Bila la nak mampus. Kadang aku rasa insecure bila pergi dialisis. Ye la, macam-macam suara ni cakap dan sumpah dekat orang lain. Takleh nak rapat dengan orang lain nanti dia akan cakap macam-macam. Susah tau. Sampah betulla suara setan ni. Tapi yang aku pasti ini semua dugaan dan ujian dari Allah sebab tu aku kena sentiasa kuat. Kekuatan aku itu milik Allah. Kalau tak dah lama aku bunuh diri, sebab beratnya ujian yang aku tanggung. Sampai kadang2 aku tanya balik keapa aku yang kena bkan orang lain seramai2 orang kat dunia ni. Kalau setakat pergi dialisis 3x seminggu 4 jam aku tak kisah pun. Yang aku kisah setiap kali aku dialisis setiap kali tu la suara2 setan ni datang. Memang tak boleh tengok aku okay sikit. Sakit hati betulla. Ni pun aku rasa ramai orang tak suka aku.


Novel aku baru 20000 lebih, belum sampai 30000 lagi. Hari ni sampai la kot. Naknya 80000. InsyaaAllah aku akan buat yang terbaik.

 Since Google ads only connected with this blog, so I will focus more on this blog. How to add more google ads to other blog? I've tried making another blog with another google account but it wouldn't do. I am happy right now coz I'm doing what I prefer today, writing my novel and knitting and of couse, BLOGGING!!


Hrmmm, I'm review my novel and yknow what? There's a lot of corrections to do. I'm fed up hahahaha. But, it's okay. Practice makes perfect.  I will continue my journey, insyaaAllah.


Goodnite all.


 


 


 


 

Hari ni aku kena dialisis lagi, 3 kali seminggu. Ahad Selasa Khamis. Boringnya hanya Allah yang tahu. Kami semua berusaha untuk hidup. 4 jam cuci darah dan buang air. Dalam masa 4 jam tu macam2 berlaku dalam kepala otak aku. Aku ada psycosis. Jadi aku sangat terbeban kalau dialisis. Aku rasa macam orang lain boleh dengar suara dlam kepala aku. Aku jadi sangat insecure dengan diri sendiri. Tolong doakan aku cepat-cepat sembuh. Tak sanggup dah aku nak hidup macam ni. Besar sungguh dugaan aku kat dunia ni. Aku kena redha sahaja. Syukur Allah masih sayangkan aku. Semua orang jaga aku dengan baiknya. Tak terbalas segala jasa orang yang menjaga aku baik keluarga ataupun nurses dan ppp. Aku bersyukur di lahirkan dalam situasi di mana orang boleh faham tentang keadaan aku. Susah nak terima orang macam aku, tapi aku bernasib baik kerana dapat di terima oleh semua orang. Harapan aku satu je, agar orang lain tak tersakiti oleh penyakit aku ni.


Bye, aku nak pergi dialisis sekarang ni.


 


Oh, she's sweet but a psycho
A little bit psycho
At night, she's screamin'
"I'm-ma-ma-ma out my mind"
Oh, she's hot but a psycho
So left but she's right, though
At night, she's screamin'
"I'm-ma-ma-ma out my mind"
She'll make you curse, but she a blessin'
She'll rip your shirt within a second
You'll be coming back, back for seconds
With your plate, you just can't help it
No, no, you'll play along
Let her lead you on
You'll be saying, "No, no"
Then saying, "Yes, yes, yes"
'Cause she messin' with your head
Oh, she's sweet but a psycho
A little bit psycho
At night, she's screamin'
"I'm-ma-ma-ma out my mind"
Oh, she's hot but a psycho
So left but she's right, though
At night, she's screamin'
"I'm-ma-ma-ma out my mind"
"Grab a cop gun" kinda crazy
She's poison but tasty
Yeah, people say, "Run, don't walk away"
'Cause she's sweet but a psycho
A little bit psycho
At night, she's screamin'
"I'm-ma-ma-ma out my mind"
See, someone said, "Don't drink her potions
She'll kiss your neck with no emotion
When she's mean, you know you love it
'Cause she tastes so sweet, don't sugarcoat it"
No, no, you'll play along
Let her lead you on
You'll be saying, "No (no, no, no), no (no)"
Then saying, "Yes, yes, yes"
'Cause she messin' with your head (hey)
Oh, she's sweet but a psycho
A little bit psycho
At night, she's screamin'
"I'm-ma-ma-ma out my mind"
Oh, she's hot but a psycho
So left but she's right, though
At night, she's screamin'
"I'm-ma-ma-ma out my mind"
"Grab a cop gun" kinda crazy
She's poison but tasty
Yeah, people say, "Run, don't walk away"
'Cause she's sweet but a psycho
A little bit psycho
At night, she's screamin'
"I'm-ma-ma-ma out my mind"
You're just like me, you're out your mind
I know it's strange, we're both the crazy kind
You're tellin' me that I'm insane
Boy, don't pretend that you don't love the pain
Oh, she's sweet but a psycho
A little bit psycho
At night, she's screamin'
"I'm-ma-ma-ma out my mind"
Oh, she's hot but a psycho
So left but she's right, though
At night, she's screamin'
"I'm-ma-ma-ma out my mind"
"Grab a cop gun" kinda crazy
She's poison but tasty
Yeah, people say, "Run, don't walk away"
'Cause she's sweet but a psycho
A little bit psycho
At night, she's screamin'
"I'm-ma-ma-ma out my mind"

 




Lyrics
Ah-ah, hey-hey
Ah-ah, ah-ah
Ah-ah, hey-hey
Ah-ah, ah-ah
He knows
Dirty secrets that I keep
Does he know it's killing me?
He knows, he knows
D-d-does he know
Another's hands have touched my skin?
I won't tell him where I've been
He knows, he knows, he knows
It's tearing me apart
She's slipping away (I'm slipping away)
Am I just hanging on to all the words she used to say?
The pictures on her phone
She's not coming home (I'm not coming home)
Coming home, coming home
I know what you did last summer (ah-ah)
Just lied to me, "There's no other" (hey-hey)
I know what you did last summer
Tell me where you've been
I know what you did last summer (ah-ah)
Look me in the eyes, my lover (hey-hey)
I know what you did last summer
Tell me where you've been
I know, I know, I know, I know (ah-ah)
I know, I know, I know (hey-hey)
I know, I know, I know, I know (ah-ah)
I know, I know, I know (ah-ah)
I didn't mean it, no (ah-ah), I didn't mean it, mean it, no (hey-hey)
Can't seem to let you go (ah-ah)
Can't seem to hold you close (ah-ah)
I know
When she looks me in the eyes
They don't seem as bright
No more, no more
I know
That she loved me at one time
Would have promised her that night
Cross my heart and hope to die
It's tearing me apart (it's tearing me apart)
She's slipping away (I'm slipping away)
Am I just hanging on to all the words she used to say?
The pictures on her phone (the pictures on my phone)
She's not coming home (I'm not coming home)
Oh, na, na, na, oh, yeah
I know what you did last summer (ah-ah)
Just lied to me, "There's no other" (hey-hey)
I know what you did last summer
Tell me where you've been
I know what you did last summer (ah-ah)
Look me in the eyes, my lover (hey-hey)
I know what you did last summer
Tell me where you've been
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know (no, no)
Can't seem to let you go
Can't seem to keep you close
Hold me close
I can't seem to let you go
Can't seem to keep you close (you know I didn't mean it, though)
Tell me where you've been lately
Tell me where you've been lately
Just hold me close
Tell me where you've been lately
Tell me where you've been lately (don't, d-d-don't let me go)
Can't seem to keep you close
Can't seem to let you go (I didn't mean it, though)
I know you didn't mean it, though
I know you didn't mean it, though (I don't wanna let you go)
Tell me you didn't mean it, though (no, no, no)
Tell me you didn't mean it, though (can't seem to let you go)
I know you didn't mean it, though (seem to let you go)
I wanna know you mean it, though (hold me close)
I know you didn't mean it, though (just hold me close)
I know you didn't mean it, though
I can't seem to let you go
Can't seem to hold you close
I know what you did last summer (ah-ah)
Just lied to me, "There's no other" (hey-hey)
I know what you did last summer
Tell me where you've been
I know what you did last summer (ah-ah)
Look me in the eyes, my lover (hey-hey)
I know what you did last summer
Tell me where you've been
I know, I know, I know, I know (ah-ah)
I know, I know, I know (hey-hey)
I know, I know, I know, I know (ah-ah)
I know, I know, I know (ah-ah), hey
I know, I know, I know, I know (ah-ah)
I know, I know, I know (hey-hey)
I know, I know, I know, I know (ah-ah)
I know, I know, I know (ah-ah)
I know


 

 Hari ini hujan lebat di kampung aku. Air pun dah nak naik, tapi kawasan rumah aku okay lagi, masih belum di naiki air. Desas desus mengatakan air akan naik di kawasan Pasir Mas, itu aku tak pasti di kawasan mana. Tapi hujan lebat di kampung aku dah bermula dari semalam. Telaga  di rumah aku pun dah nak penuh dengan air, Alhamdulillah. 


Ni pun hujan masih lebat turun. Tak tahu bila nak berenti. Ingat nak tido je, tapi bila fikir novel belum siap aku utamakan menulis novel dulu. Benda yang malas aku nak tangguh-tangguhkan. Aku pun tak pasti boleh terbit ke tak novel aku ni nanti. Adakah fixi akan terima novel aku yang tak seberapa ni. Aku dah mesej dan email alaf21 tapi masih belum dapat reply. JHarap- harap mereka reply nanti.

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